Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Long time no see

Hello Hello,

some time has passed since my last entry and a lot has happend in the meantime...
As most people know, my mother was very sick (cancer) and that was the reason coming back to Berlin. I tried to spend as much time with her as possible and help her as much as I could. It have been some pretty hard month and I prepared for the worst. My mom got worse and worse. Then, like a light at the end of the tunnel I found out to be pregnant on April 9, 2008, just before my birthday. I could tell my mom and she was very very happy, she cried happy tears. We had a great day on my birthday, she could not celebrate all day, but I was happy we could have some time together.
Unfortunately the next weeks went by in a blow....my mother got more bad, went to hospital and unfortunately died there on April 28, 2008...
I miss her so very much and am very very sad.
A lot of things needed to be arranged and still need to, not easy. In this time it is very hard and it hurts so much that I can not find words for it. The only thing keeping me up is the thought of our little unborn baby. Since yesterday we know that it is a boy and he makes me smile again and gives me hope and strength.
It/he helps the entire family to have some hope again very much too.
Sanne and me are very happy and appreciate every day of the pregnancy (he may not all the time because I am very moody) . We can now feel the little guy and already he is making me proud and I am looking forward seeing him face to face. For so long ultrasound-pictures need to do the rest...I will put one from June 4th, 2008 in here so you can imagine too and soon, on August 1., 2008 we will get the next good close-up of our son :-)



Hope you all are doing fine and thanks to all the sweet friends and relatives who have supported us in these hard times a lot and still do.

Kisses.

Mel